It's not a secret that I'm struggling with everything going on. It's all I talk about. I talk about my dream to live on the land I own. It's an extremely sensitive subject and it is a constant hit in the jaw every time I hear someone fucking with me about it. Working with Shawn on this was supposed to make this easier. Friends helping friends.. but... it's not. He just wrote me the longest fucking email and I had to stop so many times because I wanted to vomit. I think I am about to lose my last close friend who actually helps me and allows me to help back. I don't know if I can deal with this anymore
I lost my entire direction
Updated: Jan 5, 2023