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Wix is not working properly anymore ๐Ÿ˜’ I'm looking for a better place for my journal - PUBLIC POST

I have not been able to receive notifications about comments or even look at the comments on my website. I don't even know if there are or aren't comments. This platform has been so glitchy I cannot use the editor without having to constantly screenshot, because drafts don't save, even if I tell it to save! The app will kick me out after making videos. I lost a few so far. And I'm talking about a "few" on the new phone.. I can't count the amount of time I've lost trying to use this app!

I may have said this already but I have started using ig subscriptions to supplement my need to vent while my blog is on the fritz. I've been trying to get on and talk at least twice a day. Vids are about 30 min or more.

I have been looking at the "members" section on my website and the number is very misleading. It seems there are some members who have made new profiles when they sub every few months and it adds another member. It doesn't delete the old ones. I don't think my numbers are accurate whatsoever for interest in this page. It's extremely misleading and I think I need to take a good look at what I am paying for.. because I pay to have this page up and running. If I went with how much I've spent total vs brought in.. I would be paying still. It wasn't about the money.. it was about having a safe place to talk about life's crazy shit and make some friends.

I have put so much work into this page during the most difficult and disturbing time in my life. It was very very hard to do, especially when the support was very minimal. People flocked to the blog when it was free by mistake. They stopped being interesting as soon as it cost anything to read. I have had a few very dedicated subscribers who have become my friends ๐Ÿงก. Friends who really understand me, what I'm going through, why I am the way I am.. etc. I couldn't do that on a PUBLIC page.. my background isn't safe enough.

Some people say "I'm not paying to be your friend and know your life, I'll watch on ig or fb". Well to you people, I'm not asking you to pay to be my friend - you don't know what is really going on, you don't have an accurate basis for any assumptions on my personality, experience, lifestyle, parenting base, nothing really. You know what you see and that is it. You see what I choose to put out in public. I hide a LOT of my life from people. Regarding my blog, the subscription is mostly for safety. I don't feel like anyone who is intending to harm or stalk me will be on my blog putting down their financial information. And if they do, good, the info is there for someone to find them if I am harmed.

The fucked up part about typing that out is, this is my reality. I have had to make the choice to speak in depth about my life, and publish my journal. My thoughts, family issues, my breakdowns, hardships, the fight for my kids wellbeing, educational moments, finding my joy, adventuring, and basically documenting my life is for purchase; only 10$- 20$ per month. Fucked up advertising, but I made this boat for anyone who wanted to join me on my journey through the waves!

I believe I've said it a few times... this system we live with has forced me to use the only legal avenue possible to earn an "income".. if you can call it that.

I go to great lengths to exploit my trauma and self to provide a measly trickle of $ for my family. And this was before I decided to go full out on the erotic photography. Now I have so much of that I have separated the photos from my page.. I no longer manage my gallery here. It's too difficult to keep up with to be honest. And I feel like my blog is more revealing than the photos I post.

Not many people want trauma as a side dish for their eroticism so I feel it's best to keep the two things separate. I charge a subscription for my photos because its my art gallery. I don't know anyone who likes to work for free and can survive without already having a nest egg.

For those of you who read this and say just get a job... if you knew me, truly, you would understand that is not possible. I am barley able to hold it together to do what I do. And I could be doing so much better from what I'm gathering.

Quite a lot of people have asked why I am not a professional model or photographer. Some of you may laugh because I am not your flavor, I don't care, it doesn't take away from the fact that many people ask me this shit. I mostly get questions about the modeling, and I think I'm not sufficiently paid or employed could be because of a few things: I don't put forth effort in seeking out opportunities, I have too many other things that would not allow travel and other things involved. I don't have the time or money to seek out an agent to help find me work. I don't get offers that aren't mostly trades or small one time gigs to wear a shirt, jewelry or something. Among other things.. like my illness causing me to be completely inoperable at times, all the appointments I have, the responsibilities to my kids. Though Ahz no longer lives with me I deal with quite a lot still.

I have my own disabilities and both of my children do as well. I am in the middle of a situation with my son that is completely fucked up. My daughter has been in a few hospitals for mental and physical issues and is staying in one for over 2 months now, I don't know when she will get out.

I am managing therapy for myself and others, physical care for both, specialists appointments and testing for everything, dealing with legal issues, ugh.. its rying to keep up with the everyday shit in my face.. and don't forget hygiene!! ๐Ÿ˜‰

I don't know how I find the time for things, I cannot stay organized at all. I'm spiraling hard lately.. trying to keep my shit together.

I'm not sure what to do anymore if I'm being completely honest.

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You find time for things because you able see more free time me time then before I am happy to help you see little things that may have been unsolved or overlooked so you can actually find moments to smile like the warm smile I helped you just make ๐Ÿ˜Š


I recently upgraded my subscription with Wix instead of Spaces and the glitches seem to disappear ๐Ÿซฅ Sooo when you find a better site for blogs and vlogs I will drop this one or just let the month subscription burnout


Mr blue
Mr blue
Dec 30, 2023

Just keep swimming ๐ŸŠโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿ™‚...I got you ๐Ÿ˜‰


Yes I definitely trust you too it is the reason why I share personal info with you and it is the reason I share my personal comments with you in here and someone would be a fool to stalk you without you figuring them out first ๐Ÿ˜‡

Because you have wonderful friends in your life it is what helps keep you going at every step and believe me when you fall I fall right with you, that's where I kindly reach out to you allow you to grab ahold and never let go know matter what completely on your own good will no pressure at all โœจ๐Ÿซ‚โค๏ธ


Good evening my Bombest friend on earth ๐ŸŒŽ so it has been a while just the Spaces is really glitchy so I have been logging in directly to Wix if there is away to ditch the app then I believe the glitches will go with it because in Wix everything seems to work properly like it is now

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